the nearer it gets to my birthday.
the sadder i feel.

cuz i know that will be the day
where i will wish
you were still around..
the most.






:(

tho i can't help but cry on days i miss you.
i feel bad about crying at the same time too.
mainly because
i feel i've let the people around me down...
like as though they have never cheered me enough.
like as though their presence in my life is not enough.


yup.
weird.
but oh well babe.
you know me.
like you have said before
"you think too much sia"


anyhoo.
hope you're doing more than good up there.
miss you.
hugs.


p/s:
i wish you're here so that we can talk about ricky being openly gay now.
but oh well.
you still can see him naked. pfft.

question.





"If you have a sister and she dies, do you stop saying you have one?
Or are you always a sister, even when the other half of the equation is gone?"

Life has to end but Love doesn't...

"Lost love is still Love.
Memory becomes your partner.
You hold it... You dance with it..."



hope you're doing well up there babe. imy.

heartbreak warfare
watch my face, as i pretend to feel no pain.




love love love john mayer's new album.